I know I disappeared again, I'm really sorry about that. I really do intend to post but the biggest hurdle is that I don't want to do it via my work computer and by the time I can get my hands on a computer at home, say after the kids are in bed, I am half asleep myself. I have to figure out a routine that works obviously since this one is not cutting it.
So I am on the cusp of 43 and for the first real time in my life I am feeling significantly old. Not like, oh look a new wrinkle old, I mean like my body is seriously falling apart, I can't keep up with the rate my hair goes gray, and I can barely stay awake past 9:30pm old. I need Matlock!
Something happened to me this year. I started 2013 off getting my wisdom teeth out and remember being in a lot of surprising pain for two weeks after that and the year hardly got better physically. Yes, I lost 23 pounds (halfway to my goal), and began a routine of working out 6 days a week (at 6am), but despite all that healthy improvement, something is going south quickly.
First it was severe pain in my heel, plantar fasciatis, and when that finally went away (in August), my left lower back/hip area took a nose dive. I ended up seeing a chiropractor and he has given me treatment and some stretches I now do every day, but still, at the end of a day, as I am trying to parent and clean up the house, I am crippled. If I lean down to put something in the dishwasher, sometimes it is hard to straighten back up without a "click" in that area. I think my next step might be seeing a doctor to get a referral to see a specialist because something ain't right.
There are other good things going on in my life obviously but I find that it is sometimes hard to see them through the curtain of chronic pain. For me, it is mostly at night, almost beginning from the second I arrive home, kids in tow, at the end of the day. For most of the day I am fine-ish. But since I only get to see my kids during the workweek for hurried mornings and tired evenings, I don't want to be cranky to them because it hurts.
I also had a setback regarding the diet. I have stopped losing weight for a good 3 months now - not an ounce even. I realize I likely need to adjust the diet to less calories (I was doing @1500/day) or maybe take out wheat entirely, but you know, that shit is hard! I can take out sugar with 9 months of proven success (with the exception of a very dramatic day of sugar gorging I had last week at work when a client sent cupcakes and our company had a pie baking contest) but taking out all bread, pasta, and rice when you are also taking care of kids seems like a nearly impossible mountain to climb.
Have you tried restricting your calories to less than 1400/day? How does it go? Give me tips! How do I not go insane trying to prep dinner for hungry tired screaming kids at the end of the day when my stomach is also grumbling and not grab for some crackers?
Anyway, I know I shouldn't come back after weeks away and be all Debbie Downer but that is where I am at the moment when I get some awake time on the computer and a few minutes to blog.
I hope you are all well!