Somewhere during New Year’s Eve, as I was blinking away the desire to fall asleep at 9:30pm because I am OLD, I decided it was time to close down the blog. Who was I kidding anymore. I hardly ever write in it anymore and more so, I never really feel like writing in it anymore. I planned out my swan song, a short but sweet goodbye and thanks for everything message that I intended to post the next day. Since I am a super active Facebooker, I was going to offer to the 2 of you who read this who are not already FB friends with me, to come join me over there and give you an email address to reach me at if that was your choice.
But then I woke up (at 5:45am mind you because I did actually fall asleep around 9:45pm on New Years Eve because I am really OLD) and as I took advantage of the quiet solace to kick my ass with my new Insanity workout, I reconsidered my decision. I remember hearing Terry Gross interview the guy who wrote The Power of Habit and how he talked about approaching a situation in a different way to see if one could break the habit (or create a new one if desired).
My habit of not blogging came down to a few things: my iphone, not wanting to post or visit my blog on the work computer in case it could be traced at work, and that I was tired after the kids went to bed and the only computer was my husband’s desktop machine which is very slow and he is usually on it.
The iphone makes it easy for me to read blogs in bed but writing comments or anything with those stupid buttons and autocorrect is ridiculous which is why I limit it to Facebook. But the thing about blogging at work, when I am wide awake, I decided could possibly change. Why not take a page out of General Patraeus’s handbook and use my personal mail’s draft feature to compose blog entries and then spend 5 minutes at night copying and pasting them to my blog from my husband’s computer? I thought it was worth a shot.
So here we are. My attempt to reclaim the blog and make it somewhat interesting and a true outlet for me – we shall see how it goes! A resolution for the new year, if you will!
And now to update you on all things:
B’s parents are now living in Vegas near his sister. They are in a special house so they live there with 24/7 care from 3 caregivers. B’s dad is not doing well but hasn’t for a while. He is receiving hospice services and is suffering from a lot of things including Alzheimer’s and muscular neuropathy. To be honest, I don’t expect him to see 2014 and I think that would be a blessing if it would happen sooner than later.
B’s mom is not doing so well either. She is suffering a lot from depression which I am sure is not helped by the move. She continues to worsen physically and mentally. When B gets off the phone with them, he is very quiet and sad for a very long time. We are going out in April to visit them.
We did get a lovely holiday guilt-o-gram from a longtime family friend. It detailed how awful it was that we took them from their home and everything they found familiar and dear to them.
Yes, I think I can freely admit it would have been best if they could have stayed in their own home and still be cared for but at some point, it just doesn’t work out. We all try to do what is best by our aging parents but there are limits to this. There are so many factors involved, physical, mental, financial, etc.
I complained about this on FB and my friend had an awesome comeback, “You might write them back thanking them for their kind offer to have B's parents move into their home, and asking when they'll be ready to accept their new long-term house guests.”
My Aches and Pains and General Health
So the chiropractor finally found the sweet spot to curing the almost crippling pain I had in my lower left hip/back/butt area. He basically does a lot of hard pressure point work deep into the butt cheek. It is super awkward and embarrassing but it works so I am not complaining! That combined with stretches a few times a day has made me a new woman! But still, there is a whole lot of awkward when you are lying with your pants half of on a table on your side with a man’s fingers pushing into your butt cheek and telling you to move your leg this way and that. I try to keep the conversation light. “So, have you seen any good movies lately?” “Any big holiday plans?”
My little baby girl turned 4 a couple of days ago. Can you believe it? Within the past couple of weeks she mastered sleeping without a diaper (and not wetting the bed) and sledding down a hill by herself and carrying the sled up all by herself!
LM is mostly pretty awesome although there are many times when he is not and becomes, “El Senior Douche bag” (our behind his back nickname for him that was recently co-opted by friends for their own almost 8 year old son – we should have trademarked it!).
He is such a reader now and it made a huge difference in his personality. He loves to read to his sister and he can do all the voices just like his dad.
He is, unfortunately, having tics again so we are not looking into a new type of medication that would take 2-3 weeks to build up in his system that should not cause tics but deal with his ADHD. It would be so much easier if his ADHD could be controlled without meds but it can’t. We tried. It sucks.
Goals for 2013:
Money: I redid a budget wherein $350 a month automatically goes to the credit card debt every month. The cards are put away for emergency. I am trying to be cash only. We are still working towards the house fund pretty aggressively but we have to budget for a trip to see B's parents and apparently airfare for 4 anywhere now is crazy pants pricey. The plan is to be credit card free and have another $20k in the bank towards the house by this time next year.
It will be interesting to see what the fallout from the recent fiscal cliff stuff will be. I am already scared.
Weight: Well, I fell back on the sugar train around the holidays and gained back 3 lbs. For Xmass I got Insanity, a new 2 month workout system and the diet included seemed reasonable - basically 1600 calories spread out over 5 meals a day. I am giving it a whirl. Oh and the workouts are hard, like crazy what the hell am I doing to myself hard! My goal is to be down 10 lbs in 2 months of this.
Blog: I am planning to try to write in this sucker at least 2-3x/week, as long as I have something somewhat useful and/or interesting to write about.
What are your goals for the year?